So today I've been having a bit of an off day. Just one of these days where maybe you don't feel 100%, or you feel 100%, but things don't go 100%. Maybe things don't go at all.
When I looked for an image to put with this post, I googled "off day" and only found images for "day off," instead. Not exactly what I had in mind, but it did get me thinking: maybe an off day is just a day off that you weren't expecting or didn't plan.
The thing that's made me feel off today is the incessant feeling in the back of my head of needing to be somewhere, go somewhere, do something significant or that moves toward some vision of a higher goal. But I'm not sure any of that happened today. But when I went outside for the first time today, I stood under a bright blue sky with my cat and suddenly was struck by the incredible stillness of it all. "The world isn't going anywhere," I thought. "Why should I?" That's more a relative truth than absolute, but the sentiment stands. The world isn't in a rush. Plants don't stress to grow. Cats don't stress to... nap or whatever it is they do. The Earth isn't panicked about making its orbit on time, or figuring out how to orbit faster so it can get more years in before it's done.
No. It just is. So maybe I didn't feel stillness. I just felt something much bigger than me moving much slower than me, and it slowed me down, too.
I've attached to videos, both by Ze Frank, at the bottom to make more sense of this.
But yeah. Off days. We all have them. Probably better to accept and acknowledge it upfront than try to turn a day into a "supposedtobe."
When I looked for an image to put with this post, I googled "off day" and only found images for "day off," instead. Not exactly what I had in mind, but it did get me thinking: maybe an off day is just a day off that you weren't expecting or didn't plan.
The thing that's made me feel off today is the incessant feeling in the back of my head of needing to be somewhere, go somewhere, do something significant or that moves toward some vision of a higher goal. But I'm not sure any of that happened today. But when I went outside for the first time today, I stood under a bright blue sky with my cat and suddenly was struck by the incredible stillness of it all. "The world isn't going anywhere," I thought. "Why should I?" That's more a relative truth than absolute, but the sentiment stands. The world isn't in a rush. Plants don't stress to grow. Cats don't stress to... nap or whatever it is they do. The Earth isn't panicked about making its orbit on time, or figuring out how to orbit faster so it can get more years in before it's done.
No. It just is. So maybe I didn't feel stillness. I just felt something much bigger than me moving much slower than me, and it slowed me down, too.
I've attached to videos, both by Ze Frank, at the bottom to make more sense of this.
But yeah. Off days. We all have them. Probably better to accept and acknowledge it upfront than try to turn a day into a "supposedtobe."
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